I just got out of my 5th hospitalization and I'm feeling kind of hopeless. I'm turning 32 in a week, I've gone nowhere, I've tried almost every med out there, without success. I still feel low, I have to defer all of my university work because the doc doesn't want me back at school right away.

I see my own psychiatrist today so I'll see what she says about the meds the hospital put me on.

Am I ever going to have a life that I want to live? I'm thinking of trying to figure out who I want to be and breaking it down into smaller steps.