I misunderstood the texts slightly. It was more insults at me,then at my mom. She texted me in the middle of the night and I made her apologize to my mom and the next day I seen what they had actually said(the original texts). My mom picked me up and helped me out by being there for me because she knew we had to really get to the bottom of this and find out what's going on and if he is going to prepare to devastate me,her daughter. He came to the apartment,very late compared to when he got off work so like an hour later then when his work was done and was angrier then my mom had ever seen him before at me. He gave my mom gas money for getting me and apologized to her for what had happened last night and said he isn't going to kick me out and will never stop taking care of me but that he is fed up and told my mom a lot of things that were kind of private about my bizarre fear thoughts and other things. He has just been feeling too pressured by how bad things had gotten in the past two months. My mom agreed to stay with me tonight since he wanted to go see his gf again even though he usually doesn't on those days and it's our day to go get groceries and relax. He gave us money to order pizza and she stayed until he got home and had a talk with me about how I need to give him his space and cleaned up the house for me and kept telling me to take a nap since she knew i hadn't slept in two days.

I stayed at our new apartment alone for first time that next day and felt very happy.It was so great to move forward and prove I can do it. He was still being mean to me,but I proved it to myself and the distance by me doing that and freeing up some of his energy I know was great for both of us. I'm now staying alone in our apartment in daytimes and will be working up to doing it at nightime. My mom agreed to check in on me more so I don't bother him as much and have more confidence.
His mom is being nice to me,too and wants to take me shopping this week and on the phone last night to my ex said she is going out of town possibly at the end of the month and i said i'd consider going with if she happened to want me too by chance to my ex. He was surprised and called her back and asked so there's a small chance she might take me with her to california with her which would give me and him a little few days break which might be nice. I'd have to think about it,too though if it works out even if i'd want to go. So,things are calmer now and there's finally moving forward. Right now i'm taking things in steps. It's actually been very exciting to be at my apartment. It's relaxing and makes me in a very good mood. I've handled it pretty well. I know me and my ex have a complicated relationship but this is what works for us. He also said yesterday that he talked to his friend who works at his bank and is going to open me an account at his bank and start sending me money to it regularly to build up my money I have of my own because since it's his bank he can send money to my account instantly. I'm grateful things are improving. I have found some learning lessons from all this that has gone on lately,that's for sure.