I can't give any advice on medications, as nothing has worked for me and I've been on this hamster wheel for many years. I can say, however, that you are on the right track seeking knowledge. It is crucial to know this disease because it's how you can best manage your triggers.

I think of my triggers as loving beings hell bent on destroying me. If I let them lurk in the tall grass ready to pounce, they win. If I constantly shine a light of knowledge, I win. It's a simple competitive exercise.

I can tell from the way you write that you are intelligent. This is your primary weapon in this fight.

This message board helps me to know I'm not alone, and I hope it will help you too. There's also a very good and active group on Facebook, the Bipolar Disorder Support group. People ask and answer meds related questions all the time.