I was in a depressive crisis a couple weeks ago. She asked me what I wanted from her. I said I need you to be my friend. She said that's fine, but she also needs a husband.

So I have that little tidbit of information that worries me. She seems to already think of me as a bit less of a husband than she wants and that is a fair concern on her part.

I do feel like I have been something of a sham. Not on purpose, but not the promised goods. That's for sure.