I have been in therapy for a year. During our last session, my therapist told me that he and my psychiatrist thought I had schizotypal personality disorder. He asked me to look over the handout he had for me on the pd and suggested that we might talk about it during our next session and see what I thought about it.
I should stop right here and say that I believe this diagnosis is absolutely inane and bordering on incompetent. Now, just because I believe that doesn't make it true, of course, but it does lead me to my question for all of you: Of what value is my input at this juncture?
I firmly believe that one speaks in order to communicate. If one is not communicating, then there is no value in speaking. For the both of them to come to this conclusion after a year (as opposed to a single conversation), this is not a simple misunderstanding – this is an inability to listen and/or comprehend. Either that or I am too delusional to see it. Regardless, what would be the purpose of me sharing my thoughts now?
I think it would also be worth saying, I am not concerned about the label in the least. I know who I am, am happy in my own skin, and really could care less what label is attached to me. I do feel a bit saddened for the truth here, which seems to have taken a mortal blow in this diagnosis but in the end, it makes no difference to my peace of mind. In fact, this therapy is under the advisement of my disability attorney and such a diagnosis, along with my physical disabilities can only help me.
Anyway, that last paragraph was mostly just to address possible concerns the reader might have – really, I just don't know how or why to respond when he asks me what I think. My spiritual beliefs have a test for knowing when it is appropriate to speak. Is it true, kind, desired and timely? I can't think of anything to say that meets all four of these criteria.
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