I'm currently taking a class that comes due at the end of December. I have four writing assignments to complete and a final exam. For months, I kept putting them off, convincing myself that they were easy and I could do them later. Now with only 20 days left till my deadline, I'm still not accomplishing anything.

The problem is that I can't manage distractions. For months, I've conditioned myself to procrastinate, and now I'm stuck in a self-destructive pattern that I can't escape. The closer I get to the end of the month, the more stressed I get. I doubt I'll sleep well tonight. The sad thing is the assignments ARE actually easy. I basically have to write a couple short movie reviews, which is something I've been doing in my free time for years. I'm confident I can get an easy A if I can just apply myself, but it's soooooooooo hard to focus.

I feel hopeless and lost, and if I fail this class, I will have lost $800 of my own money for nothing. I had nine months to finish this homework. Nine months to finish four writing assignments. If I can't finish...I don't know if I could forgive myself.