When people on medication notice a change in their mood they immediately question their medication. Not being on medication, I can't do that. I thought I was doing okay this week but I had a few not too positive interactions with friends. Maybe it is because of the holidays but everyone seems really intense. I have two friends, both are on several medications, and they both seem off. Maybe they are having breakthrough symptoms. Is that possible? The point is, however, that not being on medication I have only myself to blame. One thing I am learning about trying to manage anxiety and depression is that I have to be responsible for controlling my environment as best as I can. I notice that I don't pull back soon enough from situations that are tense. This is something one has to control if one is doing holistic healing. It's all about controlling the environment. That means not drinking too much coffee or eating junk food, getting enough sleep, not sticking my head in the sand instead of solving problems, and MOST OF ALL, cooling off and maybe even backing away from toxic interactions, if possible. I am really at a low point. I need to retreat.