Yesterday, my therapist ended the session by mentioning that she would take the last two weeks of December as holidays and that she would be unreachable
during that time ("geographically" she said).
Ever since that moment I've been overwhelmed with a lot of mixed feelings.

On one hand, I appreciate that she informed me she'd be unreachable as she knows that if I don't receive an answer to an email I send her, I will freak out. So that was considerate of her.

But on the other hand, her being unreachable means that she's going somewhere fancy and exotic for Christmas. Hence comes my jealousy and selfishness.
This year, because of my finances, I'm not going anywhere for the holidays. Christmas is going to suck this year for me.
Meanwhile my therapist is probably going to some remote island in the Caribbean or something (I've got no idea where she's going but this is what I imagine). I'm no pleased that she's going, especially as I imagine she'll be taking her sons.

And I'm insanely jealous of her sons. Who already have a ****ing amazing life and it will be be even more amazing this year. Sigh.

I really needed to vent. Any thoughts would be appreciated.