I'm sorry that you are feeling that way.

Looking at myself, my biggest mistake was listening to the little voice that likes to bash me and make me feel bad. I'm my own saboteur. When I'm depressed, I'm like you, not feeling worthy to myself or anyone. This is also part of self bashing. By doing this, I eventually make what I'm feeling to come true. I also find that I project my thoughts onto other people, like knowing what they are thinking according to me, reading into their words and actions...the side glances, out of place smiles that appear as snarls- this I figure to paranoia and hallucinations. I've discovered that my best approach to all this and is to tell my brain that it's a liar and am not listening to it anymore, and realize that I'm so lucky to have a partner that loves me so much to endure my stupid crap, and when things get better, I'm going to make sure to show them how much I appreciate their loving patience.

It takes practice, but it is doable, I hope.