Looking for some guidance/other peoples experiences/advice.

I don't think the post will be but it could be triggering for some. (Not sure how to use trigger emote on Tapatalk)

Currently have depression and GAD. Anything can set me off.

Since back end of primary school, around the age of 11 I remember thinking that my way of thinking and reactions were not like everyone else's. All through primary and secondary school I got bullied alot and it lead to anger issues, self esteem, self critical thoughts and feeling worthless.

After leaving school I managed to suppress the bullying and other past traumas to the back of my head. This is becuase I moved away from the area I lived in to the place where I live now. Everything seemed to be going fine. Went to college, got a job and had a boyfriend.

Four years ago since I finished the relationship with my ex it set off the light switch for all what was surpressed to come to light again.

It took me a year to realise there was a problem and I went to the docs. I have had two sets of CBT. I find it helpful and from having CBT this year I have come to realise that I am a highly sensitive person, not sure if that's a bad thing?

I'm going through a negstive spell since after completing cbt 3 months ago.

I have noticed my low spells feel the worse they ever have been, I easily get irritable, angry, lose concentration, difficulties in processing emotions (always found this to be a issue) and I turn the anger inwards. Last weekend I punched a hole in my bedroom wall becuase I got furstrated at not being able to process my emotions.

When I have my lows and highs I genuinely feel like I'm boucing to the ceiling.

My moods can very easily switch depending on what has happened or been said etc.

I have a docs appt coming up which is a regular check up because I have been put on 50mg sertaline.

I'm a huge worrier too, just worried that it could be turning into something worse or extra with my mood swings.

Thank you for reading this post and thank you in advance for any comments/advice.

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