Thanks for all the responses! It is really nice to see that there are some people out there who 'get' it, since there are ZERO support groups where I live.

I've saw the nurse at my p.doc's office yesterday in the hope to go down to 125mg on the lamictal and add in low dose lithium. I got to the pharmacy and found the p.doc had given an Rx to taper off the lamictal entirely and then only be on 300mg of lithium?!!

I'm no psychiatrist but only low dose lithium without anything else seems like a really bad and inadequate move when a person is in a really bad depression and still cycling, right?

Oh, and no, I'm not on any anti-depressants; i tried three (cipralex i couldn't tolerate for more than 48 hours, zoloft sent me into a mixed and then depressed state, the other - effexor - was brutal ... i wanted to punch walls for the first time in my life and could never sleep/ ended up mixed / manic or hypomanic). So i don't want to touch any more ADs at all!