Hello kala83: I don't really have any particular thoughts or suggestions for you. But I read your post & thought I would at least leave a brief reply. Relationships can be so complicated. Personally, I lead a pretty-much solitary life at this point. I simply can't deal with other people IRL. I am married. But, otherwise, I just keep to myself. Since I am an older person, however, I guess it's not all that unusual. My best wishes to you...