I'm sorry that you feel that way. You sounded so positive a year ago, I hope that you reconnect to your honest to true self. Just a moment of weakness does not make a war lost.

I feel "stuck" in the wrong body ever since I was a wee one, but grew up too scared to say anything about anything. Watching others and understanding their painful dilemma has connected me to the truth about ourselves. Sure we are poly, but our basic construct has always been around me, I can confidentially say...at least the larger part of it all has.

But, we are able to go on living a lie because we are made to do so.