I was approved over twelve years ago. I have been seeing a psychiatrist ever since then. At first, I felt very very guilty about being on SSDI. My friends all hold down jobs, or are retired. The ones that I have explained this to felt that it was the medication that was making me this way. LOL They were not willing to accept that possibly my diagnosis was correct. So when they also found out that I have been on disability, their attitude toward me changed.

Nowadays, I still feel guilty. I am trying to assuage this guilt by planning for a new business opportunity. I have gone through allot of the formalities associated with starting a business. I now can say to others that this is what I do with my time. Doing this makes me feel less guilty. I really do not know if this is going to,work out, it is stress that I now have great difficulty managing. I do already have lots of stress at home.

So I understand the feeling of guilt associated with being on SSDI over what some would consider to be a "soft" disability, one with the mind. If I had something physical like back problems, I am sure I would of been treated differently. I still feel really guilty from time to time. I am also afraid of a medical review by SS, just to find out that they will think I do not have enough of a disability to remain on SSDI. This part scares me.

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