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Old Dec 10, 2015, 09:55 AM
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Originally Posted by RunnerIM View Post
I'm happy you guys posted. I do not want to offend anyone. I would like to understand this better.
I am one of those people that judge people on disability. I feel bad because I do. When someone tells me that, then tells me their diagnosis (people tell me this voluntarily, I do not pry, I'm just easy to talk to) my first thought is "are you serious?" I immediately tell myself not to judge because I have no clue what they are going through, but I still do. I'm bi 1, OCD. My lows are LOW. I have hallucinations, hear things and bouts of psychosis. If I'm on the wrong meds or they aren't working right. I myself can not handle stress. Can not function in certain environments and can lose touch with reality. I still work. My bio dad is schizophrenic and can't hold a job well, but then works for temp jobs. He refuses to sit at home. He does not take meds, that I'm aware of. I really want to understand better. I know I have no clue of your guys support, home environment, etc so I have no right to call anyone lazy. And actually I never think people on disability are lazy, I just feel They are throwing in the towel and taking the easy way out.
I truly do not want to offend anyone I want to be more empathetic and understanding of this illness and how it can be so dibilitating to some.
Honestly I don't know how or why you'd want to work if you're dealing with psychosis. Some of us just feel safer being at home and know that the added stress of a job exacerbates our mental health problems. My number one priority is my mental health right now. I do not want to end up in the same situation I was in this time last year, which was totally out of control and in and out of the hospital. I am trying to solidify my home life because being manic more often than depressed, I am notorious for taking off and doing reckless things with unsavory people. I am engaged now and if I do not do everything I can to maintain my mental health, then my marriage and home life will be in jeopardy. Neither of my parents are equipped to help me in any way and my fiance is all I have. But I won't waste any more time explaining myself because you've already made your judgments.
Thanks for this!
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