I finally found what CPTSD is. It's an interesting idea, but at first I thought if I do have any PTSD it's probably just the regular kind, since my dad dying was a singular event.
But then I started wondering, does it have to be the same kind of trauma repeated to be CPTSD? My parents were never abusive or neglectful or anything like that. But they did divorce when I was 3, and though they maintained a great relationship between them, they got remarried a lot, and moved around a lot. I went to 11 schools between 1st and 12th grade. I stayed at only two schools more than a year, and one of them less than a year. We were always moving and I had to make new friends and adapt to a new school. Could that be considered traumatic? We moved back to my hometown enough times for me to really call it home, and I still miss it. I used to wish I could just be there and stay there. I had several sets of step-siblings to deal with too.
I don't know, how could I find out if there's trauma in my past I don't remember or recognize as being traumatic? I've heard of repressed memories but I don't think I have any... but I guess that's the point...
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