Throughout the years I've issues with losing moments. I can feel it coming on but can't control it. It's like being paused while the rest of the world goes by. If I'm driving even in my hometown of 30 years, I am lost when I snap back. No sense of direction I don't recognize the houses or roads. It only takes a few minutes to reorientate but it's taken years to stay calm and breath through the confusion. Other times I will talk and not know I even said anything. I can walk from the kitchen to living room and not remember the in between or drive and completely lose 10 miles. The memory never comes back. This last year when this happens I feel and see myself crashing into a wall or someone running at my face screaming at me. I know it didn't happen but it feels real. Often in these moments I lose things or put things where they don't belong. Currently we are missing my daughters bag of m&ms we laugh it off but when you remember something one way but it really happens another it's very scary. I also tend to remember conversations that never took place. I really try to pay attention now like I remember the look and feel of opening the cabinet and placing bag inside I can see it. But that didn't happen. Oh and the music faintly but it's there not all the time but I hear it quietly playing. What is this? Is this a symptom of bipolar?

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