I want to start by saying I hope I do not offend you, or step over a line I should not have. When it comes to your boyfriend, have you tried gently communicating to him that his "comfort" doesn't resemble comfort much at all? Through this struggle you are having, it seems you carry a lot of guilt for disturbing him when you are in turmoil. This could be something that is adding/encouraging/triggering your nightly anxieties. Which adds an entire other element to your issues, and enables you from confronting them. Again, I am really sorry if I am crossing a line.
About the trees, as someone who smokes every morning before work- I am just going to say I don't think that is it. Although I could be using my stoner logic, I feel like it activates my brain in the morning. Like coffees friend.
Maybe when you get 8 hours, your body is just in that weird over slept stage. People who sleep 8 hours nightly, if they sleep 10+ hours will definitely wake up feeling. I feel your pain on the whole having to go to bed an hour after you get home, its ********.
I hope any of this made sense. I read your post a couple times and I can relate to it, so its a bit difficult trying to navigate how to approach the situation. I hope you find calm in your day, breathe in some brisk winter air to coat your insides.
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