I honestly have no idea what I want to be. I'm 20 years old and the entirety of my teen years was spent battling this disorder and doing my best to survive. I haven't really been living. I enjoy art and music, but I don't know how to incorporate that into a career because my motivation is just so inconsistent. I rapid cycle so every time I think I'm better and fully motivated, depression sneaks its way back in and tries to break down everything I've built up.