I've been married 15 years, been together 17 years. Most of the time he's my best friend. When he's not I hate him to my core. We have a 14 year old daughter who is my world. I underwent 10 months of miserable fertility treatments to have her. I think he gets jealous of our closeness and I'm sometimes torn, which makes me hate him. He's going to tear me right away if he's not careful as I really don't know how much longer I can deal with him. I dream of taking her and leaving all the time lately.