Hello Mrs. Mania: I recall reading somewhere that mothers typically love their children more than they do their husbands; & that this makes sense from a biological perspective because the children carry the mom's genetic material. The husband doesn't. I don't know if that's really true. I hope that you & your husband can work things out. I sometimes imagine what it would be like to just walk away leaving everything behind. But, in my case, it's just fantasy. I send you my best wishes...