I have found myself becoming attached to my T ( not the kind I feel right before I push that person away for good, the kind that feels like it will actually last, for the first time in my life) I mean, she is so unlike my mother who was always an unpredictable drunk and very difficult person for anyone to be around. There are no consequences for talking things through with T. She understands, she is calm, she is great, she is everything I think I always wanted. When I am in crisis or having a problem/ hard time my instinct is to keep those closest to me away as it is not safe to show weakness or have feelings in front of them. Now I can imagine one person that I would potentially trust in those situations, T.