Before I entered therapy, I read up a lot about transference and resolved that I'd just see her as a professional doing her job.

However, I still developed strong transference feelings, sigh.

I end up telling her she brings up weird transference feelings and saying that I shouldn't have them because the caring and warmth in therapy space is just an "generated illusion" which she creates as part of her job.

But the feelings are still there, despite my fear of intimacy and resolve not to develop transference.