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Originally Posted by SoScorpio
Sounds like pretty typical depression, maybe some anxiety too. I definitely tend to dwell on past bad experiences when I'm feeling bad.
How frequently does this happen to you? Did it just start recently?
I had been off anti-depressants for a few years and thought I didn't need them anymore, but last winter I noticed I was feeling depressed a lot of the time, and even when not depressed, I just wasn't "happy." I didn't even consider the time of year until spring came and I walked outside on a sunny day and felt like I was waking up from a long sleep. I was able to feel content without anything good happening, I was just happy to "be" again.
If you usually feel like this at this time of year, it could be seasonal affective disorder. Getting less sunlight can mess you up sometimes.
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This time in particular I have noticed it more, but now that I think about it, the anxiety I've had in the past is pretty bad, but I've never had much of a problem with depression. Usually it gets really bad when I'm alone, but when I am with other people it starts to go away. Its like this odd, dull ache in my stomach as if something is wrong, or like having an aching sadness. I would say this has been off and on since October, but more recently bad the past 2 weeks. I think you are right about it possibly being seasonal.
I honestly wish I had the courage to talk to my parents. I've never been to therapy, or taken medication but I honestly think it would help. Talking and asking questions on this website is the most I've ever done, and I just feel like if I tell my parents I want to try to get help, they might think I'm over exaggerating or something. This anxiety/depression thing has definitely gotten worse over the last few months, and I wonder if it has to do with the lightening incident giving me "ptsd like symptoms." I've never been to a doctor for mental health, and I've never been diagnosed with anything, so I just get confused with myself a lot.
Thanks for the reply.