I'm not delusional, but it is like delusions are swimming just beneath the surface. The delusions keep surfacing, but as soon as I become aware of this, I dismiss them. I think I have been like this for the past several years, but I have only recently realized that it might not be normal.

Does anybody have an opinion?

For example, I went to the therapist today, and I felt very hopeful afterwards. Then a thought came into my mind that the therapist had cast a spell to make me more hopeful - or maybe she hypnotized me and told me to remember a false session so I would not worry about having been hypnotized.

I also have had bad dreams lately, and a thought came into my mind that demons are trying to brainwash me in my sleep.

I don't remember being this way until after I had a breakdown, but maybe I am simply paying more attention to my mind. I have always tended to think outside the box. Maybe my brain is working the way it has always worked, but the magical explanations seem more plausible after the breakdown?

When I get depressed or don't get enough sleep the weird ideas bother me more. I know there is no evidence that spells or demons exist, so why do these thoughts keep popping-up?