I am really frustrated with my paranoia. I really wish I didn’t get paranoid and I could have a somewhat happy fulfilling life. I’m not depressed anymore. I sometimes feel sad. Maybe once or twice a week. Lately I’ve been scared to do little things. Yesterday I was scared to go to two stores for my mom’s birthday. I think I was scared because I’ve gotten paranoid at one of the stores before. I am afraid to do things on my own. Some movies scare me. PG-13 movies scare me sometimes. I used to never be scared of movies. I used to be always really calm when I would watch movies. I saw Creed on Sunday, (It’s a boxing movie) and I got paranoid after. I had an anxious/scared feeling to be in the bathroom around people, I also got scared to be around people, I then went to get a Christmas tree and a lot of people were at Costco and it was overwhelming for me, I felt scared and uneasy. I don’t have specific thoughts when I get paranoid anymore. I used to think people were going to attack me, hurt me, chase me and all kinds of ****. On Sunday, I felt suspicious of certain things. Like these people in a parking lot. I was scared to wait for my dad at REI in the parking lot. I’m just sick of my paranoia. I went through a 7 week outpatient program and I’ve gotten a lot better. Today, I just discharged. I need to find ways to not worry about my paranoia that much. For a week or so I didn’t worry about my paranoia. I went 8 days without getting paranoid. I need better ways to cope with it. I do reality testing like I tell myself I’m safe and question what is happening. Maybe you guys can help me. How to worry less, how to cope better with my paranoia, and be in peace. I’m really excited for the new Star Wars movie but I’m worrying that I’ll get paranoid during it or after it. I just really want to enjoy it. I just don’t want that movie to scare me too. I get scared pretty easily over dumb things. I take 120 mg of Latuda and 4 mgs of Risperdal for my paranoia. It doesn’t help 100%.