The thing is I want to be closer to them because that means being closer to my sister and I really do need help getting places, it's really hard to get to all your doctor's appointments, fill all your medication, do all your own grocery shopping all by yourself. My parents have paid to keep me away from them and they expect me to do everything by myself. Because they give me the money the assume I should have no problem but I've been rapid cycling and I can't do it alone despite how hard I've tried.
As it turns out I have narcolepsy type 2, I have hallucinations when I start to wake up, I get sleep paralysis, I have such vivid dreams that I have to slap myself awake, if I'm sleeping next to someone I sometimes end up hitting them , I scream in my sleep and my mom sends an email to me, my dad and my social worker asking what to do if I don't want to go to the day therapy program because I didn't sleep well the night before.
Why not be a human being and let me sleep?
Oh what if she has one of her stomach aches?
Let me stay home and realize I'm having a hard time.