I'm home alone for xmas too I can't afford to fly home and see family. Work is miserable and that's what I'll be doing.

I can relate--I can't afford to have more than a few brief sessions with my long term T every few months or so. But he and his kids have this rich, full life. Mine is sucking right now. Will things ever cease to be a huge struggle foe me? Will I ever live in a place where I have friends and family who live close by? Will my career and finances ever have any stability? I feel like I'm drowning.

Sorry to vent about me--just didn't want you to feel alone.