Thanks for all of your advice. I'm sure that you are all right when you say I should go get checked. However, with my job, the insurance is so expensive and having to pay $300 a month for child support I just can't afford it. So I would have to pay out of pocket and that is out of the question at this time. I have good days, but when I have a bad one...it's really bad. It'll like all of the sudden everything with DD#1 comes rushing through my head and then more and more and I can't stop it. It seems to be so overwhelming sometimes. Then I feel bad because there people out there going to worse things that I have been through and deal with it. Yet I'm being a "wuse" about it! It is good to know that here is a place to vent where you aren't judged and people don't think you are...well..."crazy".

*Update w/ DD #1....I got a call from a mutual friend (who is a go between w/ the ex...he doesn't realize her and I talk) and she inform. me that he will be moving to the state that she is in now...as of Sept. 30th. Told me that she would watch her and take pics and send them to me.....This is so frusterating....