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Old Dec 11, 2015, 11:17 AM
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Originally Posted by ChipperMonkey View Post
Maybe you don't remember the abuse? I don't mean to stick bad thoughts into your head, but oftentimes people have adverse reactions to things based on past abuse, even if they don't remember it. Its possible it happened before you could form memories or it was a one time incident you've forgotten about.
I don't believe in repression, if that's what you're implying. And I find it hard to believe that someone could just forget something as traumatic as childhood sexual abuse.

My theory on the issue is that I simply managed to psych myself out bad from reading so much, hearing so many accounts of abusive sex that something in my mind started to believe it's normal, or expected - that it's supposed to be physically and emotionally painful, or a power play, or that I have no reason to believe a partner should care about my "needs". All of which is true, I do believe that on some level, but still....if I did it to myself then the whole issue is just laughable.