I called the emergency mental health hotline just now because this morning while I should have been sleeping I felt on top of the world, couldn't stop thinking or talking about amazing things. My thought vocabulary is always great but my verbal communication is horrid but today it has been on point. I told her everything like how I went from feeling that to complete rage. She asked me if I could harm myself or others and I said no (truth) and she immediately dismissed my regard and told me to get some sleep. I'm hurting inside but I keep getting handed off to doctor, psychiatrist, telephone calls, etc. I need help I haven't slept. I don't want to call 911 because I don't feel like it's that drastic but I need answers happy now sad later. I have two people who say I must be over tired or basically to get a grip (as I see it)