Not well. Straw upon straw. Pressure from all sides -- and most hopelessness-inspiringly from impersonal "entities" demanding I give what I simply do not have. Everything closing in. Add two major slams over last 2 days, as if there was not too much already.

Spent yesterday at work barely holding it together (crying doesn't count) and wondering if I should just go to the hospital. Not going to. If agitation kicked in, that would tip the balance. As it is, I just don't give a gdf. Not even enough to bother being a danger.

Really threw some sunshine down there. Sorry.