I ha a break in my anxiety for quite a while but now it's back. I am in a good marriage all things considering but two days ago we had a fight and he said that he wished our life was easier but that with me having lupus and PTSD there is only so much we can do. He later apologized but now I've spent the last day wondering if he felt this way our entire 17 years of marriage and if I should set him free. I don't want too, it would shatter my heart but is it fair for me to hold him back. He married me knowing I had both conditions, not many men would have done that, but has he had his fill? I would be lost without him on so many levels it hurts to just think about it. We spoke about it again today and he said he does not want out of the marriage he just wishes I felt better and it's hard on him because he can't 'fix' it. I love him with all of me and just want him happy.