I am praying. Are you close to a big hospital that might be doing a clinical trial? That's free care for the course of the study (I did it when I had a $10,000 mental health deductible and also because I couldn't find a reasonable pdoc in the city where I lived). The place I did it had a mood disorders clinic and they did/do a lot of research. My hospital does some as well but this place (down the street) does a lot of med trials. I have told my pdoc I'm happy to participate in any research but drug trials; at this point I think I need to stay away from meds that aren't fully tested but when I was first diagnosed it was the best thing I could have done. Unfortunately that's the only suggestion I have for getting a dr. When I was totally uninsured I got free care from the hospital where my pdoc is but I don't think many places have that kind of program, especially now that insurance is more wide-spread. I'm taking a big chance with them though; when I go IP next month that will make it so that I owe enough they're going to want a big chunk of my income and I'm going to have to apply for an exemption to get my fees reduced. Even though Medicaid will pick up some of it the medicare deductible is big and I'm still paying it from August and a few hundred dollars from my ankle surgery along with my monthly pdoc visits add to that bill and make getting ahead on it nearly impossible. Ugh.

I'm glad i have medicare but there just isn't yet a good, affordable way to be mentally ill as far as I can tell.