Hi will19. I guess we wake up with a mind open to whatever thoughts first occur to us. For people with depression, that tends to be fears and sad forebodings. I'm sorry to hear you have such a bad time in the morning. Food in the stomach can help. About all I can manage is a bowl of cereal.

Like you, when I get goong on anything that absorbs my attention, I feel better. In fact, often, I feel just fine. Sounds like you are actually struggling more than I am. I know the future will bring some bad things, but I manage to put those thoughts aside. I ask myself what can I do now to make the future better. If I decide there's not much more I can do, then I let go of the future.