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Do you ever just have a sudden feeling of revelation, like you're seeing things more clearly than you usually do and can see reality?
I feel like that right now.
It's like, wow, I just, I am actually just a really horrible human being.
I don't understand why there are still people who like me and want to spend time with me after getting to know me.
I'm literally incapable of changing any of these behaviors on my own and I can't get help for at least another year. But at least until then I'm really just not a good person.
I just am a really awful person.
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"Do not be deceived, Wormwood. Our cause is never more in danger than when a human, no longer desiring, but still intending, to do our Enemy's will, looks round upon a universe from which every trace of Him seems to have vanished, and asks why he has been forsaken, and still obeys." -CS Lewis, the Screwtape Letters
Teen with (probably severe) depression
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