The fact that you are here is a sign of getting help. Not that you are a bad person only that you need help with your view point. Reaching out is good . We all punish ourselves at times but we must understand that this can become a self destructive spiral . When we are stressed we can misjudge our selves .
We must be kind to our selves as well as others .
We don't come with an operating manual , we have to make mistakes and reach out . Give ourselves time to understand and tolerate our mistakes . Good luck on your journey .