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Old Dec 12, 2015, 11:38 AM
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Originally Posted by ChipperMonkey View Post
Ok, well you have your beliefs, but repression does indeed happen. Please educate yourself a bit more about trauma.

What if you were sexually abused before you were able to form memories? Do you really think that an infant who has been sexually abused will have no ill effects? Even if it happened on a constant basis?

The body holds memories that the mind does not.

I urge you to read up on trauma and its effects. It sounds like you don't want to believe in repression or the possibility of pre-memory abuse causing later effects because you couldn't handle knowing that happened to you. You much rather find a name of a disorder to explain your aversion and immediately dismiss a real possibility given your extremely adverse reactions.
I see. I have heard cases of abuse before memory...but those are so rare, what are the odds, really?

Also, in my own case (which I wouldn't expect you to know, I'm just a person on the internet), who could possibly have perpetrated it? I have very little family. If it continued on, surely I would remembered something. It simply doesn't make sense. Plus, wouldn't I have more symptoms?

Anxiety about sex is the only symptom I have. I wasn't particularly sexual as a child (I did discover masturbation around age 5; though I didn't realize what it was until I was almost a teenager. It was just a thing I did in private that felt good. I even failed to make the connection when I got the talk around age 8-9 - and I never quite fully outgrew the initial "Ew" feeling from when I first learned, lol). I've always had a secretive personality, always been withdrawn especially around other kids; according to my mom the first time my parents tried to leave me with a babysitter I freaked out and they ended up staying home. But that's all normal little-kid stuff.

Also, this is probably oversharing but who cares: I don't even seem to have the adult sexual symptoms of early abuse. The entire point of this thread is trying to fix the anxiety and fear I associate with sexual activity; yet in looking around and even some past thread on other sites I've read, prolonged childhood sexual abuse often causes the opposite reactions: being very sexual, sexually submissive (I suspect I would be though and that terrifies me; it's basically carte-blanc to be hurt) or into unusual or kinky sex practices (which scare the ***** out of me). Supposedly children who have been sexually abused are unusually sexual; I wasn't. I'm not even for my age, or so it seems.

I'm sorry I'm giving you a hard time. I just find it hard to believe that something incredibly traumatic happened and I have no memory or symptoms beyond abnormal(?) anxiety about sex and a few other minor things.