Thanks for the responses. I didn't notice them until now.

I think it feels harder to build a life I want when I'm depressed. I'm thankfully no longer depressed, and I can see many ways to build what I love into my life. I'm going to enter a play in a festival, I'm trying to produce a musical I wrote, I'm in a play right now that is so much fun and we had a rehearsal today. Sure, bipolar messes with my schedule, but I think it can't really take away my love for things permanently.