So I had this new obsession coming at my door. Some may remember the previous one- Brittany Muphy. But since then, I came back for a new semester in the university, there I see those couple, the girl named Bar. In previous semester, in one on the first lectures, I wanted to ask a question in class. Since the mates there was new to me as I re-took the course after failing it the previous semester, I was a bit nervous. I did ask a question, but my voice was a bit wierd first, and I confused a bit. The girl that sat the line front of me, laughed. Since it was a middle of lecture, she closed her face to the table and laughed, twice. That thing hurt me.

So now in the new semester I re-see her. Somehow, I have some strange behavior that I need to fix, that when someone hurt me, it doesn't bother me much in first, but only after long months.
So the new semester was the time to remember this (also in the summer holiday i recalled this situation in mind). I'm very sensitive to girl, and have bad history and present with them.
I thought I would have to live with this bad feelings.

In class, she and her boyfriend noticed me, as I drove up the hill to the faculte, with the relatively-old-but-neat-and-pretty VW Golf. In class she looked at me, like she remember me. I recalled the thing with the laugh wasn't the only situation we had. When in the end of previous semester I came to the test, I just entered the class and she on the way out. We met, like stood one in front of the other. She stood still, like waiting for me to clear the way for her as she was a queen or something. That's how I felt anyway. And now, in this new semester, that girl look at me, might have remember me, and she looks better than before.
Then the next day I had the chance to revenge or show her some hate. I hated her for what she did. She made me feel so small. When in one of the lectures in the auditorium she and her b"f was on way out at the break, I came to cross, I over took them as I gently push the girl Bar on the shoulder, running up the stairs. She was surprized.
At the end of the secnod half on the lecture, her and her b"f delibaretly stood where I have to pass to get out, at the passing, and kissed. I over took her b"f as I have nothing with him, but when I came to cross near Bar, I crossed as I push her gently, scratching the wall in the other side with my soulder and bag.

After that incident she looked at me much more. She must have thought WHY?. Week later, I noticed her eating at the faculte's auditorium. Everybody eat there although it's forbidden. However, I was so angry at her, that I just came to her as she was eating egg and potatoes, with her b"f sitting next to her, and told her:
"you know it's forbidden to eat hear?"
Bar: (turn her head to me and smiles) "no"
Bar: "I always eat in front of the lecturers and they ain't tell me nothing"
Me: "just the folks that clean here would not like it"
Bar's b"f: "OK!! we go outside"
I returned to my place. I was shocked I have to guttz to do that!! and they did went outside. It was minutes before lecture's start. When they came back, she was very unhappy. She even went outside again for a few minutes, there is an option she was crying and went to wipe her tears.

The next they she, her b"f and some other guy looked at me and smile as if they laugh at me. I wasn't care about it. Didn't looked at them, I was happy with what I did. Eventough week later they did eat there. I didn't want to keep them not eating there forever, I didn't care. Just that power of ,like hurting her, like she hurt me when she laughed. And anyway maybe she smiles now just to show she didn't got offended.

But the smiles continued, at least that Sunday's lecture (in Israel we study on sunday). Every time I came to class and they noticed me, they looked at me. and that sunday, I sat on last row ,I noticed her b"f sitting front row turn his head 180 degrees to look at me for half a sec, then Bar for half a sec, and then he said something to her and she smiled. I mean really smiled. I GOT OFFENDED. Couldn't concentrate that whole last mins of the lecture.
Day later, at the same lecture at the auditorium where I made them get out with the food, the lectures saw half the students with food and told them :
"Bon apetite"
(some may be not sure if it's ok to eat there and hide their food)
Lecturer: "no no, it's ok"
I smiled from ear to ear. I recalled how I expel Bar and her b"f from there about week or two ago. As the lecture said that, b"f then turned his head to look at me, and noticed me smiling . He whispered it to Bar minutes later during the lecture.
That lecture, every time I had question, Bar turned her head to look at me. And I liked it, I really liked it.

To be continued