Hello LittleLeah: It's been a few days since you posted this. I hope some of your conflict has now resolved. From what you wrote... it sounds as though your pdoc is making an appropriate suggestion. I'm certainly no expert on eating disorders. But lacking control & willpower, it seems to me, would be one of the characteristics of an eating disorder... just my personal perspective... Anyway, could you perhaps go in for an evaluation without actually committing yourself to the program? Perhaps this might help you to resolve your conflicting emotions. Good luck!