The past months I've had trouble with "voices" in my head instead of my usual intrusive thoughts.
They're coming from inside my head, it doesn't sound like they're coming from the outside - they're unwanted and sometimes unexpected.
It's difficult to explain, they work like normal thoughts in the sense that it's my voice, but I can't control it.
Sometimes there's multiple versions of my own voice arguing which makes me lose focus.

The voices appear at the times you would expect - when in public, when I'm talking to someone or after it feels like I've embarassed myself.

Even though I'm not controlling the voices I'm not very surprised at the things they say - I've heard the "you should kill yourself" classic many times already.
If I'm having an intrusive thought and think "I wouldn't do that" there's an immediate "yes you would".

The worst part is that I've noticed that I actually act on these voices in a way - they're the reason I haven't told my therapist ("you're lying", "you deserve this" etc).
Sometimes it becomes difficult to trust people and reach out for company.

I'm a bit scared because of this - a month ago I just thought this was a bit annoying and I could ignore it.
At this point I still know it's all in my head, but it's actually affecting me (isolating myself, not making efforts to tell my therapist), so I have no idea how far this will go.

Does anyone else have this or something similar? Also, how do I shut these voices out when I'm spending time with friends or family? At those times they're the worst ):