Hi AlwaysChanging2: Yes, I used to follow allot of trans YouTubers & I was in touch with quite a few of them on a regular basis. (I even made a few videos of my own.) There came a point, however, where I decided that perhaps it was all a bit too much... sort-of like dangling candy bars in front of a person who can't eat candy.

Lately I must say that when I've gone back to YouTube to look a one or two of the transition timeline videos that have become kind-of a tradition, they just no longer do anything for me. I find myself turning them off halfway through.

I suppose part of it is that I don't know most of them any longer. Allot of the trans YouTubers I knew are gone now; & I've lost touch with the few who are still there. Plus I don't currently have a YouTube channel.

But I also think that it is at least partially due to some sense of loss I'm feeling at the moment. Although I can look back & see how being transgender has had a huge impact on my life, I also know that I have struggled just as long with other mental health problems. And there is no way I can ever know what caused what.

I no longer feel like I belong to the trans community. Of course, the reality is that I never did in any real sense. But I used to feel like I did. And now I no longer do. It has left me feeling kind-of empty... "Nobody Knows Me at All"...