Google "dysphoric mania". It's what I have and sounds like you too. It really sucks and mine has been out of control lately

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Seroquel 150mgs
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 600mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN