I don't have a psychotic illness anymore. It was a brief thing several years ago. I was never diagnosed or treated either. A therapist told me about psychosis only after my illness was gone. These superstitious paranoid musings are the only problem I have. Usually I can dismiss them, but sometimes they are all I can think about. If I sleep or get some exercise, then they seem to go away.

I am trying to learn cognitive behavioral therapy. One of the thinking mistakes mentioned in my workbook was "emotional thinking". For example, a person might be angry about being angry or worried about being worried. I notice the superstitious thoughts make me angry at myself. I am angry about being worried. This is a mistake according to CBT, so I am going to not be angry or disappointed with myself. I will simply try to get some rest or exercise.