Just emotionally exploded more than I ever have via text to t. It's late. I feel so much. Woke up from a flashback and can't get myself together. I can't stop crying and all I want is my T. I want her to sit with me right now. I need her to tell me it's alright and I'll be okay. I told her I needed her. I've never told anyone I've ever needed them before. It feels wrong and I just hate all of these feelings and memories and everything I feel like I've ruined my relationship with my T because I told her I needed her. She'll wake up to a gazillion texts that I wish I could unsend or delete from her phone before she sees them.