Are you on any medication? I am assuming not, but I am wondering if you could try St John's Wort its available at Health Food shops and has proven to be beneficial in lifting mood. But PLEASE read the dosage very carefully FIRST!!

A lot of these negative thoughts you are having are only due to the illness I am CERTAIN, that's why depression is such a dreadful illness, it literally hijacks very beings, our personalities and makes us prisoners of ourselves.

Love & Light
AGirlx