Thanks, George . . . for understanding. I did better when there was somewhere I had to be early in the day. I guess I benefitted from the structure. Even when I've had enough sleep, I feel so physically tired in the morning. A neighbor of mine goes to a gym most mornings to work out. I went with her once. When I came home I just collapsed into my bed.

With me, it feels like the absence of any energy and no interest in anything. That wears off eventually. But it can take hours. When it does wear off, I find myself wondering what the big problem was. But every morning I'm back in that pit with the steep walls . . trying to figure out how to climb up.

Funny . . . I feel better when there's less light. I feel better on rainy days.