Okay, just one thing. I have compulsions having these intrusive thoughts. One of the things is that I have to say "stop" a bunch of times. When I told a CYW this, she said that you shouldn't tell it to "stop" because it is saying it's something I shouldn't be doing. You may say it's something you shouldn't be doing, but it's something you can't control. You're telling your mind that it's mean. Yes you will say these thoughts are, but your mind overall isn't. It also lowers your self-esteem and happiness.

I'm sure that it's not trying to punish you. It just wants to be the top, and by fearing it, it becomes the top. When you aren't obsessing about it, it wants you to because it wants control. You need to not give it that control. It will get even worse if you give it to them. I suggest you tell it to your therapist or whoever to get the services you need to help them. Good luck [emoji3].

Social anxiety disorder, GAD, OCD, and panic attacks

Lexapro, 10 mg