Elipsis, I totally understand what your saying, that was my life not to far back. I'm in no way saying I have a life yet, tho I am fighting to get through this f****** ***** daily. It's not fun, I know that much.

The others here that appear to have their life together are probably still struggling with other parts of this crap too. It's just they appear to be farther into the recovery process, where we could both be at some point in our lives too.

Don't lose hope, it might be possible yet in this lifetime!